Hellooo,
Sat here on a Saturday afternoon and it is drizzly and rain today, it's meant to be bloody summer! Anyway I thought I would do a little update about work, life and family life.
Pepper is definitely in adolescence now, she is misbehaving a little more and not listening as well as she use to, she is still super cute! She does do my head in when she doesn't listen though but she is only 6 and a half months. Then there's Tom, his M.E has been hitting him really hard lately and I have been worrying about him, he has gone to the office in London once and going in again in a few days. He is making sure he doesn't over do it before hand and afterwards but he still struggles. I worry too much about him and then I don't look after myself too then my mental health goes down a little bit. On a positive note, I am going to see my side of the family (basically my mum, her partner, my sister, my brother in law, niece, my brother and his girlfriend) we're spending August bank holiday weekend together and my sister is having friends round over the weekend as it is her birthday weekend. They are all camping at the farm! It's gonna be a good one. Hopefully it will be BBQ weather, haven't bought a BBQ for the new house yet so I am hoping we get a BBQ at least once this year. Tom and Pepper aren't coming so I will be going up on the train, did a practise run on the train today it was only a short journey today but made me feel less anxious about getting the train by myself. Anyone else feel anxious travelling on public transport since Covid-19?
Anyway onto life and work, I have been volunteering for about a month and been doing a lot of window displays and displays round the shop, it is really fun and love putting my own spin on the window and I think the manager is getting to understand my style. A couple of weeks ago I put a dress in the window and 10 minutes later, it was sold! I was proud but also had a clear idea and that was my main dress for the window.. Oh well! More money for the charity and glad it made someone buy something. Hopefully next week I can get stuck into donations of clothing/bric a brac etc as I really enjoy doing that too, I think the manager is going to discuss pricing with me. Even though I have done it before, pricing clothes depending on the area and items you get is important too and the quality of it. I am really happy there though and really glad we moved here too, everything has fallen into place quite nicely!
Now onto life, it's going alright and I am pretty content at the moment, I worrying and a little anxious about random bits but honestly feeling pretty stable. I am taking my tablets, talking to the mental health team every couple weeks at the moment and my doctor is in contact with me every few weeks. It is handy because I have had some tough times of it recently and am very grateful of the support from medical professionals, Tom, family and friends. Most of the time, I usually bottle things up and they just spill and I just end up crying a lot and feeling super depressed and anxious. Tom really helps puts things into perceptive and talk stuff through to make it all sense, even though I should be doing that myself sometimes it is nice to get the help, you know? It is a good day today though, I bought some tasty stuff at Lidl, taken Pepper out for a wet walk, had some ice-cream, painted my nails and just been chilling on a miserable day. I do wish it was warm outside though, my legs hardly have a tan!
That's the end of this one as I am off to make halloumi burgers that we got with hello fresh! Really enjoying their boxes we are getting and gets us back into the kitchen a little bit more too.
See you all soon :)
