Soo, it is summer, it is warm and my week has been very up and down regarding my mental health.
I have been speaking to my dads side of the family and especially my cousin who shares the same mental health condition as me, we discussed what it is like and generally talking about stuff. Has made me feel all out of sorts! Bloody stupid isn't it? I am able to talk about stuff but sometimes I just bottle it all up and it all comes out or I pick at my skin until its raw (Some call that self harm) I am still struggling to come to terms with calling it self harm but I suppose it is.
I have done a little easy baking, took Pepper out, painted my nails a new colour, meeting up with in laws at the pub tomorrow with the doggos and just generally keeping busy. I am writing this as it is a let out for everything and it might help someone else. I am hoping this doesn't spiral and it lasts for weeks, I don't think it will as I am more talking on social media about it and lots of people are offering advice which I really appreciate, makes my brain feel less cloudy. Tom is really helping by keeping me company today and luckily he has Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday off next week so we'll have some time to chill together! (I'm not volunteering at the moment as I am waiting till Pepper is about 12 months, might have mentioned that already, sorry if I have!)
I am feeling a lot better after writing all that but I know there is a lot of work on myself I need to do over the next few weeks, including upping my risperidone that I have already done and speaking with the doctor to get a referral back to the mental health team. The doctor is suppose to be calling today, they are cutting it a little fine as its 17:00 right now. Hope I get that phone call. It is annoying the mental health team discharged me without telling me though!! I would have told them no I don't want to be discharged but ho hum.
I've also had a peppermint tea too, that really warms me up and makes me feel calmer. To be honest any herbal tea or minty tea helps me, sometimes even though I am drinking decaf coffee at the moment I was worried it would make me feel all out of sorts, jittery and more anxious so just not drinking it for a week or so.
